ITS NOT TO LATE TO CHANGE YOUR HIKKOMORI WAYS. [18+] Personal life nlog TW sex mention

Within the past year I've been really focused on recovering. abuse rewired my brain and made me so withdrawn from everyone, I had severe bpd. for awhile i hated that i was the one who had to fix problems that i wouldn't even have if i had different living conditions. I had no friends irl and i isolated from everyone.
life changing photos

around a year ago i started talking to my old friend, and their friends, and their friends. and now i feel like i can go anywhere and talk to anyone

i get to adventure and experience so much, i felt like i lost years of being in hs and im getting everything i didnt. being stupid, going places, doing things, hanging with friends, underage drinking and smoking! i thought i'd never graduate and i'll be going to college next year for psychology. i wanna be like the few nurses who really helped me when i was in and out of hospitals:) im getting my lice license this month, ive got my own car and a job. ive putting my money more twoards, raves, concerts, paraphernalia and going places rather than games or stuff for my room. and im always hanging out with friends, i take every chance to leave my room, i talk to people.

i feel like ive had interest in things again and everything i dropped is coming back. idk if its lamotrigine or my effort but im living it up EXPOSURE THERAPY WORKS i do anything im uncomfortable with, failure with communication hurt but it helped me, i force myself to talk to people even if i suck because i know its how i'll get better, i talk to people even if i dont feel like it. im not super great at talking 24/7 but im making a lot of progress and i dont let it slow me down. i usually get the knight or page of wands in tarot for myself 😜

I've been on HRT for almost 2yrs, had top surgery, no one even questions that i might be trans so ive felt a lot better about myself and wearing what i want. im a lot more comfortable with my body, i dont do romantic relationships just sex. SELF UNDIGNOSING WITH SOICAL ANXIETY

i will never stop doing what makes me happy, becoming myself, and trying to being the best i can ^_^ and nothing can stop that

STUFF IM INTO RN / Wanna do
- art, ive been really getting back into my hobbies and enjoying things again. i draw, make kandi, sew, just random stuff.
- i love playing outside and wanna and going on trails n stuff since its getting warmer out 🤤
- hanging with my bros! going places with my bros!
- PHOTOGRAPHY i have a lot of old cameras and love using them
- cats, angels, witchcraft, 1800s and renaissance, clowns, antiques, rocks, old tech
- vintage BL
- Music
- Save up for tattoos
- Started going to events, raves, more concerts
- DRIVING and BIKE i have a 1972 honda chopper that im trying to fix before summer
- i wanna go fishing and swimming 🤤🤤
- lifting, need to twunkmaxx
- i want a critter in my room a fish, rat or snake
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my cat geekbar and some photos i took, most of the photos i take right now are of my bros and me so im not gonna put them here

MUSIC
artists - lil b, flat7, cocteau twins, $uicideboy$, deaththrone, die antwoord, dj technorch


ART havent finished a lot of digital art recently but heres 1 i finished